Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Masters of our own Vacation

Recently I had the realization that in our nearly 5 years of marriage, my DH and I have only taken one vacation by ourselves. Which, by the way, was our honeymoon in 2002. Which by the way sucked due to a rotten package deal and one very nasty cleanliness issue in a Ft Lauderdale hotel.

So we declared a mulligan on the honeymoon and redid it in 2004. We had a great time in Paris and in Germany, but my sister was along for part of the ride and then we visited some of DH's family for the rest of the trip. In 2005 DH's entire clan got together for a huge ski trip (my first) and I had an absolute blast. In 2006 we paired up a visit from my MIL to our CA home with another ski trip and again, had a great time. But as talks of a 2007 extended family trip began to float around, I had my revelation. Not that I don't love them, in fact I see my in-laws more than my own family, however I think it's time we go solo again. So I brought this up to DH and he agreed to do something just for us next year. Hooray!

Unfortunatley now the planning of the trip is squarely in my lap. God Bless my MIL who in large part coordinated the last 2 trips...I wonder if I could pay her to be our vacation planner this year? So now we have to figure out where we want to go. I get the Eurpoe bug about every 2-3 years and Italy has been on my mind. I only saw the highlights of Rome the last time I was there and DH has never been. Then there's a friend who's getting married in France in June...but that ruins the "just for us" intent, doesn't it? Plus, with the stress of the last year, lying on a beach for hours on end is very appealing. Has anyone ever gone to one of those cheesy Sandals resorts? We're definitley not looking for group beach games, but having everything at our fingertips and being cost inclusive looks like a good deal. Does anyone know what the catch is?

Even though it's going to take a bit more effort on my part to plan things, I'm really looking forward to it. Now I REALLY need to get that new gym membership this week, so that I don't frighten the natives in a bikini!

Monday, October 30, 2006

Crisis of Will

Okay everyone, bear with me...I've been inspired by some of my friends and their blogs, so here we go. Hopefully I can find enough interesting things to write about...

So, for those of you who haven't traveled the last year with me, I've gone through quite a transition in these 12 months. Both my DH and I left the Air Force and found kick-ass jobs in the civilian world. This of course took months of effort, the help of a top notch recruiting firm (Thank you, Cameron-Brooks), and involved a serious relocation from the West Coast to the Midwest. I definitely found a "stretch" position with a huge, innovative, great company that so far I love.

Why then, after all this effort do I find myself questioning if I have it in me to work hard enough to succeed? It's not that I'm having a Crisis of Capability--I know that I can do the work. The question that keeps pestering me is do I have the ethics within me to actually do the work. You know, you hear all the time about someone who's simply driven to succeed. They work umpteen hours a week and live and breathe for their jobs and they are very, very successful at what they do.

Is there anything wrong with being on the flip side of that coin?

I have to admit, on days like today which included a 3-hr meeting from Hades at the end of an 11hr day, all I want is some serious work-life balance. I want to work my 40-hrs and then go home. I don't want to be working on weekends or at 10:54pm (current time--just finished working). I suppose the problem is that I'd love to be highly compensated for all that "balance." Am I missing some critical gene that would have ultimately made me successful in business? I don't know. I know some people are born to work and others have no desire to do anything besides raise their children. I'm so jealous that they've figured it out for themselves, but where does that leave the rest of us who haven't gotten the neon sign from the Universe yet?

Stuck with a crisis of will, apparently.